| kickin' off 2026 |

 Assalamualaikum, hi korangs! 

Lama ekkkkkkkkkk......*smirk-face*

Should I do a recap of what has been happening for the past 3 years of me not blogging? Maybe i should la kan? But not in this entry lah. 

This one, I'm blogging at 5.45am. Why? Sebab i finally cleared out my working desk. Yes. I literally ignored my working desk yang teramat lah semaknya for the past ermm....one and a half year. Apo. It has always been some random cafes table as my working desk. U know with coffee by the side and probably a slice of cake or a basket of fries. But this year since I foresee, I will be more 'at home', therefore terpaksa rajinkan dirilah untuk kemas and make space. It took me half a day but at least it's finally done. Semoga kerajinan itu diteruskan untuk hari-hari yang mendatang. #wishfulthinking

By the way, Happy 2026 korang! 

How was your New Year celebration? As usual I was home. Following the usual tradition for the past 13 years. The unusual part - alone. That's new. And more new things incoming in the near future, maybe. There's always a first time for everything kan? You know another thing that was unusual for me? I entered 2026 feeling angry inside. A lot has happened last year and I'm guessing everything I kinda bottled it up til this day of blogging. Yes, still angry. Tak tahu lah nak cakap macamana tapi I swear the red guy and the green lady of Inside Out has literally took over me. 


As much as I want to ask for help, I can't. I mean I can, but no one will understand. It's a series of unfortunate events and I must face them. By myself. And THIS is me helping myself. It's just one of those phase in life, u know. Nak tak nak, hadap je la sis. 

If I seem detached, I'm sorry. Kinda. Actually, to be honest, I'm not. I want it. 

If I sound blunt, also not sorry. 

If I act harsh, you probably deserved it. 

If I look depressed, maybe I am. Hurmm.

So, yeah. fcuk me and fcuk you too. 

May i keep continue writing again and again this year. Like those many many years ago. It's all I feel like doing (beside going on with life). In my mind, I wanna be somewhere else. Far far away. 

Okay tu je la for now. It will get better for me, I know. Til my next posts, bye! 



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