It's Me, Luvtanya

i fell in love with the song. we had to drove 2 cars for a few days so it's pretty normal when i drive alone, my playlist will be the one yang teman me. radio off. and this was on repeat. nak kata rindu kat LVDV yang tengah drive blakang me karang muntah pulak ye dok? haha. but then i realized one thing about RINDU.  it's always the first thing. bila start a new relationship, rindu is the first thing kita rasa dalam hati. kita rindu orang tu if tak jumpa or call or text. bila ada rasa rindu tu laa..we feel as-if we're in love. sebab rindu will make u realize adanya feeling sayang tu. and... bila the same relationship is on the rocks, rindu is the first thing yang akan hilang. kita takkan rasa apa-apa when the person is in absence. kita tak heran langsung pon actually. sebab kita dah tak rindu at all. no rindu no relationship. that's a fact. rindu is a serious matter.  have u ever rindu someone sampai nanges? one of my friend recently called me...

i was told i am a person yang mudah terhibur . when it is a work-related issue, please read as easily distracted. as much as i want to deny it, i will not. sebab memang betol gua memang mudah terhibur pon. haha. but this got me thinking... u see, just because i don't have any office to go to or i work at hours yang suka hati or i choose the days i wanna work or not...people tend to think i don't have any job. technically memang i don't have a job,i have a business. there's a difference u know. i work for myself. build my own business. i don't work for orang lain. or work under anyone. when it comes to involvement of orang lain, it's more like i help other people's business. that's what i usually do. one year after another, i swear...people misjudge me about my work or no-work issue is seriously starting to get on my nerves.  one of my weakness is i tend to grab any opportunity that knocks on my door. when i say any, read as all. be it from baki...

"tak pe laa sayang. kalo u gemok pon i sayang kat u" . . . . . i wanted to slap LVDV's face. -_____-" such a cliche sentence. this was after berairmata dia gelakkan aku sebab i said i feel fat. LOLs. just to make things clear. i was NEVER kurus pon. im already at the state of redha accepting the fact 'kuruih' will never be in my dictionary. im very voluptuous and curvy. recently, i just added chubby and double-chin to my list. pffts. now, makin menjadi-jadi plak which lead me to say i FEEL fat. since i believe in karma a.k.a whatever u say might come back and hit u in the face, so i think for the past few months maybe ada la aku termention some names who looked chubby-er than before. i swear im sorry for calling you 'Mok' Asha...it was your brother's idea actually. :P   it started when recently i felt some pain kat area lutut. (there's also kisah lutut which made LVDV laughed harder. hoh!) been mentioning it to LVDV bu...

a friend once scolded me for having 'nothing-in-life'. at that time, i was unemployed (quit my last job), i was having relationship issues (major unforgiven behaviour. bitchy me eh? LOL) and i was 32 but i looked like someone who is 45. teruk giler. i felt shitty inside yet being an honest friend she was, her tarbiah wasn't helping at all. i had #GGBEBS but it was managed by Sue so she said that didn't count. i didn't have a house of my own. i didn't have a car of my own. i didn't have a job. i was practically living but not happy. she scolded me like any other bestfriend would. you know, rubbing into my face all the things i didn't wanna hear. comparing them to hers and other friends. i hit rock bottom. did i mention this was on new year's eve? i didn't cry. i said thank you and hugged her before we both went to bed. i didn't sleep at all that night. i keep thinking about what she said. asking me to decide what i want in life. memang la...