Luvtanya Writes

 Assalamualaikum, hi korangs!  Lama ekkkkkkkkkk......*smirk-face* Should I do a recap of what has been happening for the past 3 years of me not blogging? Maybe i should la kan? But not in this entry lah.  This one, I'm blogging at 5.45am. Why? Sebab i finally cleared out my working desk. Yes. I literally ignored my working desk yang teramat lah semaknya for the past ermm....one and a half year. Apo. It has always been some random cafes table as my working desk. U know with coffee by the side and probably a slice of cake or a basket of fries. But this year since I foresee, I will be more 'at home', therefore terpaksa rajinkan dirilah untuk kemas and make space. It took me half a day but at least it's finally done. Semoga kerajinan itu diteruskan untuk hari-hari yang mendatang. #wishfulthinking By the way, Happy 2026 korang!  How was your New Year celebration? As usual I was home. Following the usual tradition for the past 13 years. The unusual part - alone. That's ne...

 Assalamualaikum! Hi korangs.  I am currently at the point of thinking to create my own podcast. Should I? This is not new, it has been a while in my head. Cuma i haven't found the courage to start. Sis kan sejenis suka procastinate. Heh. LVDV keeps saying i like to talk a lot. Sometimes I don't even know when to stop. Haha. And ohemmgeeee the amount of teas people are spilling to me is......let's just say i don't tadah using cups. I usually use jugs. LOLs. What do you guys think? Proceed? I need feedbacks pleaseeee... So, as im blogging this, it's actually a few days away from Eid. I'm taking a break from work in the office kejap. If you're making that pelik face of reading "office" ...yes, im in the office. New office in fact. Just started my journey a couple months ago. Sis reveal soon la eh what I'm doing pulak this time. Hahaha. I know I know I have like almost every month a new thing going on. That's just me guys. I take up opportunit...

Assalamualaikum korangs.  i'm just gonna be straight forward about things this year. i think im gonna cancel January. bole ke gitu? bhahahahahahaha. kita anggap je la Jan nie as a trial month. training of some sort. can ah?  okay fine. kidding. Happy 2022 korangs! **waving hard** i started my first day of the year with....diarrhea. tak kelakar kau tahu tak! going in and out of the toilet every 10-15 mins for 2 days was exhausting. no idea what i ate. but it was horrible. i actually said sorry to my tummy and bonbons for having them go through such excruciating moments. it makes you sad tau knowing you hurt your body. tapi...although dehydrated sis cuba gak la husnuzon. kan dah pesan berkali-kali kene sentiasa bersangka baik. sis bersangka it is God's way of telling me, it's time to jaga makan this year jangan main bedal je sebab you are not getting younger. and on top of that pemalas nak exercise. so this is a reminder. gitu la konon-nya my prasangka. sis terima seada-nya. ...

is it just me or memang everytime approaching new year everyone tetiba datang rajin nak blog something. and by something means your-konon-upcoming-resolutions-for-next-year. okay fine, i admit. it's just me actually. gosh! last year, i was a week early. this year, sort of a month! amik kau. haha. apakah? actually i drafted this piece early in December tapi half way je. sekarang baru datang mood nak sambung. apakah nak jadi dengan kau Tania oiii...smh. every single year ive been saying 'this year has been crazy' . honestly, im just saying the truth sebab it is. technically, it's crazier than the previous year. i mean, i don't think there will ever be a year where ill say. 'this year is okay-okay je la. biasa2 jerrrr' ..nope. not gonna happen. sebab every year is not okay. ada je kejadian. and it's like that because that's just how life is.  2017 has marked as one of the many sad moments. lost a few souls that was very very very VERY close to...

ive passed the 100days. alhamdulillah. i am proud of myself, im literally giving myself a pat on the back. haha. i still get questions like "this is for real ke babe?" ...and now, i can answer "it's been more than a 100days so im pretty sure, yes...it's for real" you can ask Sue, how much i wanted to berhijab many years back. even before i was with LVDV. but never kuat hati to do so. so along the years, the closest i am to a hijab is kumpul segala tudung mak nenek in a box with an imaginary label ~ to wear one day nanti. even back then, my sisters knew i already pasang niat but they always give me advice; if belom ready tak payah lagi kak nya . I've probably heard this sentence like over 500 times. both of my sisters, started berhijab when i was still in short skirts dresses. i supported them and over the years, i watched how they've evolve becoming such pretty hijabis. dalam hati berbisik, bestnya macam nak jugak. but although im a risk ta...

so, i've been busy guys. for the past 7 months, i've been busy. so busy i feel like slapping myself after realizing my last post was early this year. now, it's 3 months away from new year. errr...i guess the best thing to say is, look how time flies when you have a life kan? #facepalm.  but truth to be told, im hardly "online" anymore. on social media. on whatsapp aku sentiasa online. that's more for work. on average probably, 3 bulan sekali update status on fb, seminggu skali update instagram and selang sehari im on twitter. look how bersawang my blog is? gosh! adakah ini faktor umur? or dah berjangkit from LVDV? dia memang couldn't be bothered with all this stuffs at all. i dunno.  but one thing for sure, im not the same person anymore. online that is. i carefully pick my words nowadays for my captions and statuses. i also carefully choose the pictures of who's who i wanna post online. kalau dulu hentam je, tak pikir. now, not all pictures i...

. .  . . . we don't talk anymore. and by we, i meant me and u. and by u, i meant my blog. bhahaha. but seriously, was checking out my archive this year i hardly blog pon. teruk-nya la haiiii...i love blogging but what the hell is happening?  no one to blame but myself obviously. im sorry but to be honest this year i have turned into someone who tak-kuasa-nak-post-apa2 on any social media platform. nak sedapkan hati, i truly believe it's a phase. if u dont believe me, guys go and check my instagram. hardly babe. hardly.  for IG i used to post at least once a day. u know, to document a significant moment or thing for the day that makes me happy. now, bukan-nya im not happy, i am... but i tak kuasa. i just don't have the heart to share anything. LVDV said i dah tua. am i really? dia memang selamba blunt. i think i got affected daripada dia. LVDV memang bukan jenis yang post-all-the-time. i am slowly turning into that. *gasp!* oh no!!  i read som...

a friend once scolded me for having 'nothing-in-life'. at that time, i was unemployed (quit my last job), i was having relationship issues (major unforgiven behaviour. bitchy me eh? LOL) and i was 32 but i looked like someone who is 45. teruk giler. i felt shitty inside yet being an honest friend she was, her tarbiah wasn't helping at all. i had #GGBEBS but it was managed by Sue so she said that didn't count. i didn't have a house of my own. i didn't have a car of my own. i didn't have a job. i was practically living but not happy. she scolded me like any other bestfriend would. you know, rubbing into my face all the things i didn't wanna hear. comparing them to hers and other friends. i hit rock bottom. did i mention this was on new year's eve? i didn't cry. i said thank you and hugged her before we both went to bed. i didn't sleep at all that night. i keep thinking about what she said. asking me to decide what i want in life. memang la...

i re-read my first post for this year and i was 18days late. pffts. i decided to not let it happen again so therefore i am 48hrs (plus/minus) head-start for 2016. so proud. start early. so not me. haha. so, 2015 was simple yet significant. as i wanted it to be in my 2015 new year post . banyak benda yang tak plan menjadik tapi as usual lagi banyak yang di-plan tak menjadik. i guess that's what you call a balance in life. apa juga rezeki yang didatangkan, syukur alhamdulillah. apa juga yang tak best tu, i try my best to learn something out of it.  the saddest part about this year, was the passing of nenek in September. i swear somewhere in me havent moved on yet but i stay strong cause i know she is in a better place. i don't talk much about her since i get teary-eyes easily. masa b'day arwah recently, lil bro did a simple video compilation for the family. i cried sampai bengkak2 mata. im am THAT penyedih. nothing like arwah yang strong will. the only thing i probab...

this year 25th Nov was a bit quiet i must say. a few days earlier there was a request for it to consist only 'YOU&ME' ...aiyaaaaa. habis plan aku. *tepukdahi* but i calmly replied with a smile. of course. what else. i almost blurted the whining "but whyyyyyyyyyy" gesture. u know, with addition of battling eyelashes and all. but that didnt happen either. with all the seriousness in the voice-tone and all. smile Tania. smile. and say, 'okay'. and the day went by as smooth as ever. quiet and smooth. total quality time together which i think it was due to perubahan umur or something. but amazingly, i think it was all that we needed. that time. that moment. that togetherness. that love. that understanding. that we are looking forward to more quiet birthdays celebrations together. we have each other and that is all.  cliche giler tak?  memang. but so what? it's true. paling awesome, i got a million of thank yous after that. and THAT was all what...

usually, she will wait. she will always be there when i get home. but ive been home for almost a month now. batang hidung dia pon tak nampak. *sigh* every day i pray she'll come home. obviously im living in denial right now because everyone in the house knows she wont.  so i cry. quietly.   she sits with her head up high. body solid straight. just like a tiger. hence i named her Tiger. dah la garang kemain. memang dia sepuk je sesapa yang dia tak suka. LOL. someone left her depan pintu umah in a shoe box. yes, a shoe box. kotak kasut princess if im not mistaken. i had no cat milk so i feed her with susu full cream Dutch Lady. amik kau sihat walafiat.  she stayed with me in good times and bad times. ada extra rezeki harus i share it with her. usually on vitamins or good premium food. once or twice hantar pergi grooming, never to the vet. i told u she was sihat walafiat. not kidding wehhh... she gave me many babies. most of them i gave away for adoption. to...

this year i promised to keep things simple yet significant. happy new year 2015 u ols. kbai. . . . . . . . . . . too simple pon tak leh jugak kan? hah! if you're thinking 'giler busy pompuan nie' baru sekarang nak wish new year. the answer is i kinda am but i kinda am not. honestly, i didnt couldnt find time to blog-up. lame excuse i know, will work on it this year. hehe. besides being away during the 1st week of 2015, life has been pretty much pre-occupied. believe it or not, kengkawan pon blom sempat jumpa. not to mention dugaan bila encem-boii (LVDV's car) decided to have viral fever. i believe it takes time to heal so we're not pressuring him so much. looking on the bright side, i never knew walking is fun (in Msia). been walking often and it feels good. some sort of exercise gitewwww...but the real reason what i love about it is walking with LVDV. walk and talk. stop walking still talking. once in a while aku ala walkathon lelaju sebab ada h...

finally, a kenduri doa selamat with family at sucasa.micasa. shall we consider this our penutup for 2014? hmmm...i think we shall...  *smiles* this year, macam giler sekejap je rasanya kan? tahu tahu je dah hujung tahun. berapa kerat blogpost je yang sempat i ols coretkan dah tetiba nak kene prepare for azam-baru topik. hehe, as if. last saturday, selepas penat lelah dan semput mengatasi "obstacle" for a few months, we finally dapat tarik nafas lega. semuanya sudah teratur dan diatur dan yang tinggal is only to manage it. alhamdulillah. itu yang terus buat kenduri. for the first time, kenduri yang proper. kalau setakat makan2 biasa memang dah selalu sangat. but this time it was proper kenduri. i smiled in my heart masa baca doa. Tuhan aja yang tahu how overwhelmed i felt. great feeling i tell you. stared at LVDV's glad face was a heartfelt. the best part, LVDV's family came (aunties, uncles n cosins)..loved the house (and the food. ehem, ehem).  nenek also ...

" the true mark of maturity is when somebody hurts you and you try to understand their situation instead of trying to hurt them back". ..tis appeared on my insta TL. i would assume they are still immature and the only situation i would wanna understand is that they are bloody idiots. u know how rumors travels fast? not this time. it took a while. yet it was somehow meant to be. if it wasnt for LVDV i would've smack the shit out of them already. okay tipu, im not that brutally of a kak long kawasan type. haha. trust me, i never will be. but u get the idea of how mad i am right? but the rumors did took place. and it hurt. scarred me quite deep cuma tinggal nak cry it out. but after  deep thoughts, that crying thing is not gonna happen just cause i have so much respect of my life right now. there's so many things happening at this moment...so many things to be thankful for...so many things to feel blessed for..and maybe just maybe, sakit hati yang satu nie is God...