It's Me, Luvtanya

i re-read my first post for this year and i was 18days late. pffts. i decided to not let it happen again so therefore i am 48hrs (plus/minus) head-start for 2016. so proud. start early. so not me. haha. so, 2015 was simple yet significant. as i wanted it to be in my 2015 new year post . banyak benda yang tak plan menjadik tapi as usual lagi banyak yang di-plan tak menjadik. i guess that's what you call a balance in life. apa juga rezeki yang didatangkan, syukur alhamdulillah. apa juga yang tak best tu, i try my best to learn something out of it.  the saddest part about this year, was the passing of nenek in September. i swear somewhere in me havent moved on yet but i stay strong cause i know she is in a better place. i don't talk much about her since i get teary-eyes easily. masa b'day arwah recently, lil bro did a simple video compilation for the family. i cried sampai bengkak2 mata. im am THAT penyedih. nothing like arwah yang strong will. the only thing i probab

this year 25th Nov was a bit quiet i must say. a few days earlier there was a request for it to consist only 'YOU&ME' ...aiyaaaaa. habis plan aku. *tepukdahi* but i calmly replied with a smile. of course. what else. i almost blurted the whining "but whyyyyyyyyyy" gesture. u know, with addition of battling eyelashes and all. but that didnt happen either. with all the seriousness in the voice-tone and all. smile Tania. smile. and say, 'okay'. and the day went by as smooth as ever. quiet and smooth. total quality time together which i think it was due to perubahan umur or something. but amazingly, i think it was all that we needed. that time. that moment. that togetherness. that love. that understanding. that we are looking forward to more quiet birthdays celebrations together. we have each other and that is all.  cliche giler tak?  memang. but so what? it's true. paling awesome, i got a million of thank yous after that. and THAT was all what

u know what makes me smile? having a bestlovefriend like Sue.  she posted this on my FB wall recently... . . . . . . i love you mucho too babe! sweet kan? me and her, we've shared a million stories i think. if not maybe more. some sad ones, some happy ones, some angry ones, some disgusted ones, some over the top ones and some totally P&C ones. talking to her eases my soul. keeps me sane. she never says what i wanna hear (typical scorpio). kalo ada pon, that's totally courtesy je untuk sedapkan hati aku 5minit pastu sebijik setepet dia kasi. huwaaa. nevertheless, i  still love her mucho! then i felt anxious. if she posted this which obviously with the help of FB memories reminder, mana reminder aku wehh?!?!? i waited. and waited. and waited. . . . . . . wtf?!?! bongoks giler. dalam banyak2 pictures, they just had to compile this one?!?! nak kene carut ke cemana FB reminder nie? -_______________-" MEMANG TAK L

usually, she will wait. she will always be there when i get home. but ive been home for almost a month now. batang hidung dia pon tak nampak. *sigh* every day i pray she'll come home. obviously im living in denial right now because everyone in the house knows she wont.  so i cry. quietly.   she sits with her head up high. body solid straight. just like a tiger. hence i named her Tiger. dah la garang kemain. memang dia sepuk je sesapa yang dia tak suka. LOL. someone left her depan pintu umah in a shoe box. yes, a shoe box. kotak kasut princess if im not mistaken. i had no cat milk so i feed her with susu full cream Dutch Lady. amik kau sihat walafiat.  she stayed with me in good times and bad times. ada extra rezeki harus i share it with her. usually on vitamins or good premium food. once or twice hantar pergi grooming, never to the vet. i told u she was sihat walafiat. not kidding wehhh... she gave me many babies. most of them i gave away for adoption. to make othe

ive been trying to find some good topics to blog lately. kan kengkonon nak get back on track. then i realised, i have none. how weird is that? then i realised another thing, i also hardly post instagram photos too. wtf?!? what is becoming of me??? nak kata there's nothing interesting happening in my life, that will be a lie. i have stalkers and haters beb. gila kau claim cenggitu? haha. they look forward to whats happening with me. i laugh or i cry. im happy or im sad. they wanna know. eh wait, they know. stalkers kan. but that's besides the point. ive come to conclude i think ive become a private person a bit more for the past months. ive been travelling. ive been focused on business n opportunities. ive been attending events. ive been watching movies. ive been spending time with my ohanas n my lafamilia. ive been outing with only close friends. im all the time with LVDV. and yet i dont wanna share any of it on social media that much. shessh. that's new. for me. bhahah

what happens at 3.14am when ure still up doing some extra work? . . . . . . this happens. 'a little bit of ...TWIX' katanya. im already on my third stick guys. pftts. i should be snacking on carrots right? wrong. im saving those orange-veggies for Bibit. Twix is all i have for now. buying them in K-Mart at the very last minute were meant for nights like this, right? RIGHT.  noticed anything different? yups. just in case you're wondering, im hiding from mom. hahaha. but yeah, im not kidding. sejak dua menjak both my parents are active online. maka adalah lebih afdal neither of them should bump into my writing, and i needed something new. something to let me stay as luvtanya, therefore Loved by Luvtanya it is. :) besides, i miss blogging. this so-called new-ish me should motivate me to get back on track. havent u noticed? my last post was in May wehhhh....it's November now for crying out loud. *tepuk dahi* where have i been? where?!?!?!?!?!

dah third day. im still humming. once or twice or thrice a day i still re-watch their videos. and sing-a-long. ini sejenis gilak!! one of the BESTEST concerts ive ever been to. LVDV was the happiest ever. Kevin asked us to be 15 again that night. but i think LVDV went straight to being 13. ahahahaha! believe it or not, before concert we went karaoke strictly BSB playlist. kengkonon untuk preparation. refresh balik lyrics and what-not. nampak tak gigih kat situ. lagu yang pernah nyanyi pon hentam practise. tak sia-sia kejadian karoks unplanned itu. almost every song they sang....*smiles* the boys, i mean the guys..are older. and better. they've been together for 22 years (sama lama ive known LVDV tau!) and still counting. if you've adored them before you will still adore them now. like any normal concerts in Malaysia, asap kepok start kuar atas stage je everyone will just start screaming for no reason. lepas tu...krikk krikk kejap. pastu when the boys..eh, the guys came

jap. remember i mentioned i backpacked before in #travelloveZ to Koh Lipe last time? this time, backpacked again. only one big bag. i just had my slingbag on. BUT, ku berjaya pujuk LVDV beli another bagpack while we were backpacking! bhahahahahahahahaha. okay fine, i je yg paham benda kelakar nie. let's move on. so, we were back in Lipe again for the second time! woohoo! kali nie tidak berdua, malah berlapan. haruslah angkut satu geng kan? it was fun i tell u. i learned a lot of new things about Lipe and friendship. like seriously. everything was kinda well planned. kiranya, sempat menabung sama-sama for this trip. since our first tu trip tak sengaja yet we survived, so the second trip was smoother. agak teratur la jugak for us. from flight to langkawi to snorkeling adventure to melapok main Jenga over banana splits.  my biggest achievement, i overuled my fear of dogs! hehehe. bangga i. tidak lagi ku berlari sebatu bila nampak mereka sekilometer away. hahaha. senang h

im done with it (ohh) this is the start of how it ever ends they used to shout my name, now they whisper it im speeding up and this is the red, orange yellow flicker beat sparking up my heart . . . . . thanks for pissing me off today. it made me think. it self-motivated me to be the better person. after all,  karma's a bitch, bitch.

this is not an often thing for us. and by us i mean me and #bestlovefriend Sue. semalam kitaorang outing. and by outing i mean jenjalan with a mission. mencari barang spa. so as planned, to Sg Wang we go. the last time i was in Sg Wang was more than 6 months ago according to my Swarm App but i think i was there recently with LVDV and Gegurl cari barang jugak. tak ingat bila. dah park dah cari kedai dah beli barang...we were famished. so we decided on sushi and the nearest was Sushi Zanmai in Low Yatt. daripada atas turun paling bawah. belok kiri tak jumpa. berhenti jap tanya budak kat Aunty Anne's tu and she showed us the way. 'sampai hujung turun bawah dik' ...amboih!?! ko panggik aku adik?!?! woah!! so we did, sampai hujung turun bawah. tak jumpa. turun bawah lagi. takde. naik balik ke kiri plak. jumpa toilet. okay fine..naik atas lagi. terus tanya information counter. can u imagine kitaorang dua ekor sesat nak cari jalan blakang keluar from Sg Wang to Low Yatt?!

bila sorang kat Bukit Jalil, sorang kat JB and sorang lagi in Sydney.  saturday night and this happened: this is some sort of a normal sisterly conversation for us. you know in between the po paw penguins and fat cat mat and other discoveries that we are excited to bagitau each other time-time tu jugak...one thing to another then it lead to this: that's my sister singing by the way. -__________________-" then it was my turn to You-Tube Badanamu Ponytail.....and tak yah susah-susah. im sharing it here for you guys. im TOO excited.  *bigsmiles* . . . . . comel giler kan? like comey tersangat amat kan? kan? kan? "pppppppp ponytail" yups...i end up singing to my sisters. then my nephew Aydin sang it back to me. LOL!! okay tu je. kbai.

i grew up watching all Disney princesses cartoons movies. im an 80s baby...like hello! so when this came out (or any princessy-movie) i was excited! in my mind, dah embedded with the original storyline...u know...Cinderella waking up singing with the birds, Gus-Gus demok gedempol pakai t-shirt nampak perut, ugly step-sisters sorang kuruih tinggi sorang gemok pendek n her scary rambut uban step-mother who was old. well, she looked really old to me at that age, but nope. nan-hado dalam this version.  this one, didnt have much singing as i would expect but it's definitely a fairytale. 'have courage and be kind' is Cinderella's mantra. no matter what people do to you, always be kind. and owh, believe in magic. who knows one day in time of need, you have a fairy godmother to the rescue. turning pumpkin into a beautiful golden carriage, mice into horses, rags into one of a kind dresses and flats into glass slippers. i bet in this millenium, she can turn paperbags i

i dont know what is my problem but the last few movies i watched, semua pon aku nanges. dah kenapa kan? i suspect it's a faktor umur thingy but im assuming hormonal imbalance sajo. kuangsam betol. the other day, screening Run All Night. if ure a fan of Liam Neeson, you'll definitely love this movie. kalau selalu tengok dia selamatkan anak dara, this time dia selamatkan anak teruna. yang botak. and handsome. ehem. technically it's a one night stand story. literally, memang dia run-all-night. hehe. it's about friendship and family and confessions. like really hard confessions. what got me was the friendship part. i mean, having your good friend dying on your lap..that's tough. especially when u were the one who shot him. oppss.. sengaja or not you will somehow compare this to the Taken series but this is different. sebab for the first time, he started off as a loser. dia tak jahat, just a loser. it took me a while to digest that. i was like...'why are

do u love robots? i love robots. i think they're super cool.  well, if u do love robots, you will definitely love CHAPPiE. he's cool and cute! he is also probably the only robot gengster in history. who wears chains. u know, those thug-life ones macam dalam video clip hip-hop tu. yups, he's cool liddat!  what's so special about this Ai machine is that CHAPPiE is r.e.a.l. and by real i dont mean humanly-real but it's as close as having his own human-like mindset. which means he feels emotions. since he is made out of titanium, CHAPPiE nie kira kat luaran keras tapi dalam hati ada taman...permainan. hahaha..comel giler. when he was activated he had a mind of a lil boy. he acted like a lil boy. he loves books and has a chicken-toy. he was born in a...err....acah-acah gengster family. im not sure if you know what i mean, but nanti dah tengok mesti korang paham lah! >.< CHAPPiE 's self-claimed mommy is Yolandi and self-claim daddy is Ninja. i bel

got excited over Christina Perri the other day, so i posted this in my lovedbyluvtanya ig. i mean, my caption was saying the truth right? everyone basically knows that song. and once upon a time that song was dedicated to the person you were with AT THAT TIME. come on, if you're denying the dedication pon, well at least your partner must have perasan syok sendiri it was dedicated to him/her. self-claim gitu. or wish it was dedicated to us. we've all been there. there's nothing to be ashamed of. then i tweeted this: "bila dipikirkan, mungkin bole jadi punca gado nie tapi...nahh, what a waste of time" ..and LVDV replied me this: "ok xyah pikir2...saya otw!" ..gilo.  then i realised one thing, we have always been like this. from day one. playful. im pretty sure this part was developed during our friendship days. sebabnya, dulu...bebila akan terjumpa, the moment i see LVDV from a far i have this habit of jalan sambil ala2 skipping ke arah di

every week i have a session of sleep over at nenek's house. we take turns to jaga her through-out the night and early morning, lepas mandikan nenek and serve her breakfast we continue balik to our daily life macam biasa. every week without fail, i dig in some first hand recipes from her as well. bab masak nie i think i am more like nenek sebab i love simple dishes. the lesser the ingredients the better. hehehe. bukan malas ye..tapi anything mudah and ringkas has always been my thing in cooking. and baking too for that matter. recently, i cooked dinner. sambal udang. actually nenek yang teringin, i just bought the ingredients. we cooked sama2 kat dapur. gigih nak jenguk jugak kuali even in her wheelchair. every week when i come over, if berkesempatan ill just cook something n bawak to her house. last week, dia teringin nak masak for LVDV. i gotta tell u, everytime time (without fail) she layan us makan sambil borak she will mention dia suka tengok LVDV makan. sebab bila LVDV ma

first of all, this movie is rated 18 for a reason. please do not bring your underage kids if u dont want them to see Margot's titties. *opps! spoiler alert* i mean, Will's hot bod is just fine but Margot is wayyyyyyy hotter!  Focus is movie about penyangaks . okay kidding. a more nicer word would be con-man. tapi they are con-mans yang tersangatlah ohsem! literally, jaw-dropping ohsem. i mean, if u have an ambition to be one, watch this movie 50mil times. lotsa tricks i tell you. lots.  but janganlah bijak sangat nak jadi con-man ye tak? the storyline is twisted between work + emotion. how feelings can actually effect oneself in work too. it's about distraction. it's about cheating. it's about lying. it's about trust. it's about letting go. it's about choosing. it's about love and family ( u will not believe who is the dad!) and how zalim u can be bila terdesak. it makes u think. what would you do?   tagline: it's about focus. the br

i posted a new year wish on the 1st of Jan and that was it.  everything else was on pending until further notice. then one day kat dalam facebook page i received a message from admin stating someone had reported my fb page as unappropriate. like wtf? im selling preloved clothes for crying out loud. hoh!  so after resolving the issue and after many days of thinking, ive decided to shut down lovedbyluvtanya......NOT! hehehe..kau gila aku nak tutup my own brand? but some changes are about to happen. LVDV's honest opinion had me realize that i suck at retailing. bhahahahaha. thank u kamoo...ure very blunt  yet very true. sometimes, menyakitkan hati tapi im sure it's with the best intentions. hahahha. come on, who am i kidding...my bazaar days are over. been there done that. ku membeli lagi banyak daripada ku menjual. apakes? so scrap that out from the list. i did quite okay online via ig but masalahnya...ada plak yang introduce term 'swap'..ish,ish. kesudahannya

Dragon Blade.  tajuk kental yet i ols kememe tengok citer nie. #tepukdahi produced by the man himself, Jackie Chan played the role of Huo An. a man who believed in peace. ' turn foes into friends'  ...wow. who knew citer lawan2 segala nie was about friendship. salute.  im usually easily confused with movies yang banyak sangat characters, this one had 36 races in it. kau rasa? tapi main characters were Huo An, Lucius (John Cusack) and  Tiberius (Adrien Brody). Huo An nie penjaga Silk Road befriended Lucius who was saving the cutest prince ever from his evil brother Tiberius.  mula2 semua pon la tak kawan. lawan sana lawan sini and a sand storm came. Lucius n his Roman troops had no choice but to berteduh at the Wild Geese city, which was under construction. in return of protecting their Roman army who had to fled for help to Parthian Empire, they helped to rebuild the city and became friends. sweet kan? masa celebration la i ols nanges. masa the little prince sang h

Let me tell u this, i backpacked. When i told my #soulsistah Shazna about it, she gave me a big WHAT? and a long HAHAHAHAHAHA . via whatsapp. pffts. Among the things i learn living with LVDV is to keep things simple. Hence, let’s ditch those luggage bags and go for those backpacks. We did plan and talked about it but never knew we would just... you know, buy tickets and shoot-off. What a start for 2015...phew! Ceritanya macam nie... it was our LVDV-day. al-kisah encem boii demam masuk hospital, we had to settle him first. make sure dia ada babysitter. that being done, LVDV terus mcm "jom pegi check tiket bas nak?" ...i agreed. half-heartedly still tapi okay kan saja. with a lot of things happening at the same time, i didnt thought any trip was gonna happen. but i guess we both needed a getaway. and LVDV is full of surprises. well, surprises for me at least. heh. ada plak tiket basnya. haha. sebat midnight punya trip. it was 2pm, we havent p

this year i promised to keep things simple yet significant. happy new year 2015 u ols. kbai. . . . . . . . . . . too simple pon tak leh jugak kan? hah! if you're thinking 'giler busy pompuan nie' baru sekarang nak wish new year. the answer is i kinda am but i kinda am not. honestly, i didnt couldnt find time to blog-up. lame excuse i know, will work on it this year. hehe. besides being away during the 1st week of 2015, life has been pretty much pre-occupied. believe it or not, kengkawan pon blom sempat jumpa. not to mention dugaan bila encem-boii (LVDV's car) decided to have viral fever. i believe it takes time to heal so we're not pressuring him so much. looking on the bright side, i never knew walking is fun (in Msia). been walking often and it feels good. some sort of exercise gitewwww...but the real reason what i love about it is walking with LVDV. walk and talk. stop walking still talking. once in a while aku ala walkathon lelaju sebab ada h